December 24, 2006
The night before Xmas...
The tree is decorated, the presents wrapped, the stocking filled. Brian's in bed already, I'm watching a rerun of House with the cat.
Tomorrow we go to the Foss house for breakfast and gifts. Then back home to roast another turkey and play with our toys.
All in all, it's shaping up to be a low-key but happy Christmas. Part of me wishes I had visited my parents, but I'll see them in January.
Merry Christmas everyone!
Posted by Laura at 10:00 PM
December 11, 2006
Tomorrow...the big day
Tomorrow morning Brian and I meet with the surgeon to discuss my hope to have surgery. If all goes well at that appointment, I should get a surgery date. I'm excited and nervous about being so close to actually having the surgery. While I've only been actively working on this since July, it's actually been a much, much longer process than anyone realizes.
When I was about 14, I watched an episode of Oprah after school one day. They discussed various types of "stomach stapling" operations. I remember thinking at that time how I wished I could have an operation like that. I knew I had a problem with food and my weight even then. Now, truthfully I haven't been dreaming and plotting to have my intestinal tract sliced and diced for the last 18 years, but I have thought back on that day several times these past months.
I wish I didn't have to do it...oh God, do I wish that. I don't want to have to work harder than everyone else just to be "normal." In college I had a friend named Kelly, who was about a size 6, and we ate most of our meals together. She ate anything she wanted and never gained an ounce, I ate the same things and my weight just creeped up. It pisses me off, truth be told. Not Kelly specifically but seeing anyone who maintains their size, seemingly effortlessly. I know it's not effortless...the slender women I know eat moderately and exercise. But I won't lose weight by doing what they do, I'll just maintain the status quo. So I need the gastric bypass tool to get to a better baseline. At least that's what I tell myself.
Posted by Laura at 09:42 PM | Comments (1)
December 01, 2006
Yep
Posted by Laura at 10:19 PM